In the aftermath of theRustshooting,Alec Baldwinis leaning on his family for support.
“They are trying to keep things as normal as possible for the kids, but it’s not easy,” says the source of Baldwin’s wife,Hilaria, 37, and their six kids. (Baldwin is also a father to his eldest daughter, Ireland, 26.)
The actor, 63, is at the center of the tragic shooting that resulted in the death of cinematographerHalyna Hutchinson Oct. 21.
Baldwin “feels terrible about what happened—it’s all been a nightmare,” says the source.
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“I would go to any lengths to undo what happened,” Baldwin said during the interview, which is now streaming on Hulu.
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Baldwin also claimed during the interview that he never fired the weapon, which contained a live round of ammunition rather than dummy rounds.
“The trigger wasn’t pulled,” he said. “I didn’t pull the trigger. I let go of the hammer of the gun, and the gun goes off. I would never point a gun at anyone and pull a trigger at them. Never.”
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“No matter what happens to me. No matter what I suffer. If I win or lose, anything. Anything. No one can take away from me the joy and love you have given me,” he wrote, tagging Hilaria.
“These are tough times. The world is choked with fumes of hate. But you have given me a reason to live,” he continued. “Our life with our family is all I care about. Nothing else. I owe that to you.”
This Friday, a two-hour20/20special will delve into the events ahead of the shooting onRustand the investigations. The episode will air this Friday at 9:01 p.m. EST on ABC and will be available to stream on Hulu the next day.
source: people.com
