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Kody, 54, met up with his brother-in-law Nathan — who is married toMeri Brown’s sister but was also was previously polygamous — to have a heart-to-heart about how he can best navigate this tough road ahead. In doing so, the Brown family patriarch questioned whether he can even “manage” monogamy.
As Kody’s brother-in-law warned that he’s now “going to have to face the darkest parts” of himself in this new chapter, Kody said: “It’s weird, I am! And I don’t like who I am.”
Kody then told the cameras he has an “urge” not to be “mean as hell,” which is something he’s “seriously fighting.” He now feels that because he “failed” with three of his four marriages, he should now “just be the Devil I am.”
Kody added, “I just have this gut thing that’s like I’d like to run away from my life. You know, just escape. Just change my name, disappear and be somebody else. I just … I hate my life right now.”
“It would absolutely devastate me if he tried to leave me,” she continued. “I mean, I know he has these thoughts. I mean, you can’t make anybody stick around or stay.”
“I just know it’s from pain,” she added. “It’s not because he’s a selfish or a bad person. He’s just in pain.”
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